And sometimes, the workout is bad

I had a bad workout yesterday.
I DNF for the first time ever.
I puked.
It was bad.

After I was finished, I laid on the floor for about 10 minutes afterward and I bitched myself out. I probably said every awful thing I could possibly say to myself.

“you should have pushed harder”
“you should have moved faster”
“I can’t believe you didn’t finish”
“you shouldn’t have rested so long”
Despite my coaches all coming to tell me good job.
Despite Jess yelling and cheering me on.
Despite my boxmates telling me I really worked hard.
I really gave myself hell.

I probably talked to myself like that all the way to class last night. When I pulled into my parking spot, I told myself to shut up. 

I pushed hard yesterday afternoon. 
Even though double unders are one of my incredible weaknesses, I pushed myself to do them. 
Even when I had to do double-single-double. When 65# got heavy, I kept doing it. 
Despite realizing that I couldn’t finish within the timecap, I pushed hard till the very last second. 
I worked hard.

And it seemed like my coaches and my boxmates all saw that but I couldn’t get it through my thick skull. Until I made myself shut up.

I am better today than yesterday and I’ll be better tomorrow than today. 
Sometimes that little voice inside’s got some nasty things to say…guess I’ll have to shut her up with some heavy lifting. 

CrossFit: 5 Signs You Might Be Doing It Wrong

When you talk to people about CrossFit, 98% of the time, they’re gonna brag all on how this awesome group of people changed their life and now they’re all awesome because of it. Which is more than likely true.

But all of us-ALL OF US-know that guy/girl who makes CrossFit really unattractive. Like, you meet this person and you don’t even want to do CrossFit anymore because this guy/girl is a complete douche. Yeah, you know who I’m talking about.

In fact, if you’re reading this and thinking to yourself, “I’ve never met anyone like that in CrossFit,” it might be you.

5 Signs You Might Be Doing This Whole CrossFit Thing Wrong

5. You’re competitive with everybody and everything

Don’t get me wrong, competition is great news. It’s fun to watch and it’s exciting to participate in. But there’s a time and a place to be competitive with other people. Your 7 am WOD with your regular ass boxmates isn’t it. Trying to hide your “workout secrets” from other people is dumb. What are people gonna “steal” from you? Like, oh yeah, this is how she does double unders? No. You’re supposed to be beating you so that, when and if you’re in a competition, you can be your best to compete against others. See how that works? We’re all there to support each other and push each other to do better. We want to congratulate you on being a badass and working hard. But, no one likes a freakin’ show off. Throwing your times and PRs in people’s faces for the purpose of showing them how much better than them you are is just rude. 

4. You don’t listen to your coaches

See where it says “COACH” on the back of that guy’s (or girl’s) shirt? Yeah, it’s ’cause they’re a coach. Meaning they went and learned shit about CrossFit and got a certificate saying they did it. Know what that means? If they’re trying to help you, you should probably listen, yo. The thing about coaches is: they want you to succeed. Even more than succeeding, they want you to not get injured. There is nothing I hate more than helping someone and having them tell me, “what do you know?” Uh, I know how to deadlift correctly? Don’t be that guy/girl who tries to tell coaches that they don’t know what they’re talking about. 

3. You eat like a child and expect to perform like a man

I took this from my coach, Andrew. But he’s right. You can’t go around eating chocolate chip cookies and McDonald’s all day and then expect to perform like an olympic athlete! You just can’t. It’s like putting regular fuel in a premium tank. You’re just f*cking shit up in there. Yes, we all make mistakes and we all have cheat meals. I can attest to this more than anyone. But if all you’re eating is pink slime chicken mcnuggets and Big Macs, don’t be surprised when you’re pushing a 30 minute Fran.

2. You ostracize the newbies

Can I just say that I love new people? Seriously. I love them at our gym. I think it’s awesome that they want to be part of our little crossfit cult family and I want to make them feel welcome. Why? Because when I was a newbie, everyone at RSCF made me feel welcome and comfortable. Trying new things can be way scary and feel really overwhelming. A lot of times, that’s why people quit. You were a newbie once, too, yo. Go help ’em out. Help ’em figure out how to adjust the GHD or put away their weights. Show ’em the ropes. Be a good person, for Christ’s sake.

1. You don’t commit

I know. It’s crazy. All these CrossFit people obsessed with their “box” and their workouts named after girls. So you decide to join. And you go once a week. You totally don’t see what the hype is about. I mean, yeah, you get all sore for the rest of the week but you’re not seeing results and you don’t look like Christmas Abbott. What’s the big deal with this crossfit thing, anyway? Uh, if you only go once a week, you’re gonna look like you only go once a week. So get in there 3 times a week. Or 4 times. Or 5 times. Let your body show you some freakin’ results so you can see what the big deal is about. 

Moral of the story: come to the box. Work hard. Be better…than YOURSELF, make friends, be happy, be fit, eat clean, be a good person. Pretty easy, right? Right. 

Go forth and prosper, beast!

Sometimes I’m a big rage monster

So, according to Steph, my blog hasn’t been very “woddy” lately. And she’s right. I’ve been all bummed out that I can’t make it to the box as much because I’ve got so much going on with work. The maximum number of times I can make it to the box is about 3 due to horrendous schedules. 

BUT, just because I can’t make it all the time doesn’t mean I don’t have to work out. Because I do. Or else I’m just a big rage monster.

I was able to make it to the box on Monday evening and found this on the whiteboard:

Time: 18:58
Big thank you to Katilin for coming with me to snap this picture. This is the coolest board right down the block from RSCF. Basically, you can use to chalk to write what you want to do before you die. Well, before I die, I want to do some handstands on the Before I Die board. Mission: accomplished.

I have decided I have had enough of not being able to do double unders. I’m going to get them if I have to sit there and practice every night in my living room. I can’t deal with singles anymore. My thruster form was better, I noticed: I could sit in the bottom of my squat with my elbows completely up, I just felt like a weakling. Andrew says it has mostly to do with the fact that I’m exhausted all the time. I reckon he’s right.

I got out of work a little later than I expected and couldn’t make it to the box last night, so instead, I made up a WOD really quickly and did that instead. I’m not a programming genius like KB, so I just did the best I could.

Last night’s at home WOD:

Time: 27:41

Y’all, those wall climbs killed me. The running was okay. The squats were great. The wall climbs made me want to end my life. Maybe it’s a lot of being inverted and a lot of stress on my back/shoulders. Maybe those are just excuses. Guess that’s something I need to work on ASAP.

And can I say that my abs are STILL sore from Monday? Geezum peets. 

So those are the goals:
1. Double unders
2. Butterfly pull ups
3. Handstand technique improvements

I’m really looking forward to getting to the box tomorrow after school and at least being able to enjoy it a little.


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